Friday, November 28, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
So as I sit and wait for the food to bake, I have a moment to reflect on my life and what I'm thankful for.
Thank you God for giving me loving parents that brought me up with good values and prepared me for the big world. Thank you that they were able to send me to a good college. Thank you for giving me a big dose of motivation to finish college and get a great job. Thank you for placing Nathan in my life. Thank you for allowing us to be parents to one of your newest children.
Thank you for all my friends and family out there reading this message. I pray that everyone has a great day and takes a moment to share what they are thankful for.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
So today should be a pretty crazy day too. I'm "working" till 11:30, meeting my friends for lunch, going to the grocery store (ughhh) to fight the crowds, then cooking broccoli cheese casserole, cornbread dressing, green beans, and broccoli salad for tomorrow. I will probably do all of the prep work and some of the cooking today and bake everything tomorrow morning. My brother and two of the kids came in last night from San Antonio, so maybe he will come hang out with me while I cut up millions of vegetables and cook. Hopefully I don't wear myself out too much. Last night, I was tired and hungry on the way home, and I had lots of BH contractions.
I hope everybody has a great day today getting ready for tomorrow! I will try to post tomorrow, but if I don't, Happy Thanksgiving!
I'm thankful for friends and family that make my life fulfilling and keep me busy!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Kind of scary seeing me all out there, but I really wanted to share the pics to help Amber get more maternity clients. She did such a great job. I really like the pics with the baby shoes.
Today Nathan is working on fixing the flat roof that has been leaking. I'm thankful that my husband is big and strong and knows how to work on our house. I know he doesn't like doing it, but I'm glad he is willing to. I'm also thankful that we got our sewer problem fixed. I think another problem is coming though. It seems like our water from the tap had dirt in it. Yuck! If it's not one thing, it's another. We got our cat fixed yesterday, the little orange one. He is my little baby, so I was worried about him, but he is ok. He was still drugged up when we picked him up yesterday, but this morning, he was back to normal and wanting to be petted and loved.
Monday, November 24, 2008
Nancy and Jewels had posts last week about implanting embryos and abortion that were very thought provoking. I can't help but share my thoughts.
For those unfamiliar with terms and situations for selective reduction, let me explain. Selective reduction is basically ending the life of a fetus, usually using a chemical solution, usually done in the first trimester. This can be done for a variety of reasons, including a terminal pregnancy where the infant how little or no chance for survival, and high order multiples.
For more information, see http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Selective_reduction
High order multiples (I'm defining as more than two fetuses) can occur for many reasons: naturally, after transferring embryos, after insemination, or with the use of fertility drugs and intercourse.
In transferring embryos, there are statistics that predict how many transferred embryos will implant and grow. For instance, a woman could transfer three and be told her chances for no pregnancy is 60%, singleton is 20%, twins is 17%, and triplets is 2.9%, and the chances of an embryo splitting to have quadruplets is .1% (made that up). She would have to make the best decision she could. Her decision would probably changed based on her age, financial situation, quality of embryos, and her thoughts on how many children she could handle. Hard decisions.
For an insemination or timed intercouse with the use of fertility drugs to stimulate the ovaries, things are different. A woman may be told, you have 3 follicles that could produce eggs. She has to decide if she is ok with possibly having 3 embryos form. Or she could be told she has 4 follicles. She has to decide where to draw the line and say no. That would be hard to say after she has invested time and money into a cycle.
It's hard to say what I think is right and wrong. I think there is a line to draw. To me, a small chance of quadruplets would be a good place to draw the line. More than 4 embryos to transfer or more than 4 follicles for IUI or intercouse seems like too much for sure. I don't think I would transfer more than 2 embryos because of our history of transferring two and getting two to implant.
But, who am I to judge people for their decisions? Selective reduction sounds so much more acceptable than abortion to some people, but really, it's the same, a life lost. But then again... what about our frozen embryos? What if we are not able to transfer all 9 of our embryos? I like to think life begins when the embryo attaches to the uterus. But some people may define life starting at conception. It won't be an easy thing to do for us to let them go if we have to, but where does that rank on the terrible people meter?
I'm pro-life, but I hate abortion. I hope we can concentrate on how to help women avoid having to do selective reduction and abortion by having adoption programs and having REs counsel women on the dangers of high order multiples. I've actually seen women post on message boards about using some of their leftover medications on their own, not supervised by their dr!! That is horrible! That could result in high order multiples or OHSS (ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome) which can result in severe pain and even death for a woman.
Bottom line, this is a very sensitive topic, and decisions of this nature should be given much thought and should be guided by a competent doctor.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Saturday, November 22, 2008
My friend Britton had her baby on Friday, and I'm hoping to go to the hospital tonight and see him. She had a planned c-section due to previous uterine surgery. The baby was over 9 lbs! Can't wait to meet him and see how she is doing.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Maternity pictures turned out great! Amber Hamilton is the photographer. She is super sweet and did a great job. As soon as she gets the gallery up, I'll let you all know, and you can see the pics!
We had a plumber come out, and he thinks the problem is not cracked pipes under the house, but plugged line and bad installation of a clean out. That's the good news. Price to fix is $585. Not anything super high, but a little more than we thought. So we may get another estimate and decide what to do.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
I really struggled with taking my maternity pictures without Nathan, but I'm going to go ahead and do it today. I'll probably feel a little less insecure without him there and be more open to what the photographer wants to do. Plus it will be a surprise when he sees them.
Tonight is our last baby class. It's the baby care class. I don't expect to learn anything completely new, but like I've said before, I'll take all the help I can get. Tomorrow we're heading to Houston to the perinatologist for our level II scan for growth. Hopefully little boy is growing big and strong.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
First of all, I forgot to pay Entergy (electric company) this month their $267. So yesterday I quickly sent an e-payment to them (so I thought). BUT I somehow accidentally sent the money to Centerpoint Energy (gas company) who I already paid this month, and that bill is only about $30 a month. I called Centerpoint, and they got my money, but it will take 2 - 4 weeks to get my refund. WHAT??!! We'll survive, but now I get to pay Entergy their $267, plus the next bill is due $256 on Dec. 5. Guess I should pay more attention next times.
I planned on coming in to work late today because a plumber was supposed to come and pump out the nasty sewage water from under our house and see what is leaking. I saw him get to our house around 8:00, got dressed, and was about to go outside to see him, then he was gone. Nathan called me to tell me that the guy tried to call him, but wasn't answering now. Apparently, the guy decided that he is too big to get under our house. Ummm.. Duh! Saturday when he came he said he would send "his guys" over to do the work. Either he doesn't have any guys, didn't pay attention Saturday when he saw how much room was under our house, or he just doesn't want the job. So back to square zero on that. Yes, there is raw sewage under our house, and yes, at times we can smell it in the house.
This was technically last night, but I'm counting it for today. Nathan finally got a hold of the insurance adjustor. We are trying to settle our claim for damages to our house during Hurricane Ike. Damages aren't major, but they do need to be fixed. She said that she tried to call us previously and left a message (Um, no you didn't) and that roofers came to our house and inspected our roof. They supposedly found quite a bit of damage to the main part of the roof, so she is including that in our claim. She said that they were not going to cover the only part of the roof that actually is leaking (WHAT??!!), but they are covering the ceiling under that part of the roof (OK?). So, if you've never had a big insurance claim, you would think, "ok, so fix what needs repair and don't fix what you don't want to mess with." BUT, (as we say in TX) this is not our first rodeo. We had extensive damage after Hurricane Rita, so we know how this goes. The insurance determines how much money the damages will cost, then (since we have a mortgage) they send a check to us written to the bank. We send the check to the bank, and the bank cuts us a check for a portion of the money (50% or 30% maybe). This takes an extra few weeks of course. Then after we are 50% done with the work, they send another check. And they do come out and inspect the house. Then after 100% completion, they send the rest of the money. So I'm not sure how this will work. If we don't fix the roof that may or may not be damaged, we might not get all of the money. Maybe we can talk to the bank and see what they think. Or maybe our roof is more damaged than we thought. The roof on this house is 3 years old. It's very steep (VERY) so difficult to climb on. What's next here?? Not sure yet.
I slept pretty bad last night. My pubic bone hurts bad. I think this kid has horns on his head... My belly is hurting today and the BH contractions are crampy. I woke up sleeping on my belly this morning. Yes, my belly is too big to sleep on. That did not feel good at all for an hour or so.
My photographer called and she can't take our maternity pictures on Friday afternoon. So she is coming tomorrow afternoon, which means I have to leave work really early, and Nathan won't be able to be there. I struggled with if I should do it tomorrow or not, but I decided to do it. We have a good camera, and I can get a friend or Mom to take pics of us together. I just want a professional to take pics of me that will be good memories of how my body looks all big and pregnant (ok, so maybe not so big, but definitely pregnant). I thought about waiting till I'm bigger, but with holidays coming, it might be difficult.
Good news - We did get an estimate from a local contractor for the damages to the house (not including the possible roof damage), so that will help move along the insurance claim. And I think Nathan is going to fix the part of the roof (small flat section) that is leaking into the nursery.
Hope everybody has a great day and not a Wrong Wednesday!
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
I finally took the quiz. I couldn't do it at work for some reason. I just answered how seemed best, but I'm a little surprised at being a Joan. She doesn't seem very nice... A lot of it is true, but some is a little too harsh for me. Or maybe not...
Your result for Are You a Jackie or a Marilyn? Or Someone Else? Mad Men-era Female Icon Quiz...
You Are a Joan!
You are a Joan -- "I need to succeed"
Joans are energetic, optimistic, self-assured, and goal oriented.
How to Get Along with Me
* Leave me alone when I am doing my work.
* Give me honest, but not unduly critical or judgmental, feedback.
* Help me keep my environment harmonious and peaceful.
* Don't burden me with negative emotions.
* Tell me you like being around me.
* Tell me when you're proud of me or my accomplishments.What I Like About Being a Joan
* being optimistic, friendly, and upbeat
* providing well for my family
* being able to recover quickly from setbacks and to charge ahead to the next challenge
* staying informed, knowing what's going on
* being competent and able to get things to work efficiently
* being able to motivate peopleWhat's Hard About Being a Joan
* having to put up with inefficiency and incompetence
* the fear on not being -- or of not being seen as -- successful
* comparing myself to people who do things better
* struggling to hang on to my success
* putting on facades in order to impress people
* always being "on." It's exhausting.Joans as Children Often
* work hard to receive appreciation for their accomplishments
* are well liked by other children and by adults
* are among the most capable and responsible children in their class or school
* are active in school government and clubs or are quietly busy working on their own projectsJoans as Parents
* are consistent, dependable, and loyal
* struggle between wanting to spend time with their children and wanting to get more work done
* expect their children to be responsible and organized
I will be off this Friday to go to Houston for our ultrasound. Then Friday afternoon, we are getting maternity pictures taken!! I'm excited. I've been wanting to do them, but I don't want to spend much money. I found a local photographer offering a great deal for a one hour session and about 15 prints for $60. That's just what I wanted, a little book of pictures for us to look back on. And she's going to come to our house! We'll do some outside and some inside, some just me, and some me and Nathan.
Next week I will work Mon, Tues, and Wed. I have an appt Mon, so I will be leaving early. I'll probably leave early Wed too to go to the grocery store before it gets too crazy and crowded. I can't believe Thanksgiving is practically here!! Then Christmas, then another birthday for me (Jan 1), then BABY TIME!!
Monday, November 17, 2008
"If you can't say anything nice, don't say nothing at all." Words to live by.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Saturday, November 15, 2008
What exactly am I talking about? I could put this to a few situations I've been in. I was just looking through my pics trying to find one to share with you and these thoughts just came out.
This is a waterfall we went to in North Carolina somewhere along the Blue Ridge Mountain highway to nowhere.
I hope everyone has a great weekend.
Friday, November 14, 2008
I’ve been reflecting a lot on my childhood, the good and the bad parts, and thinking about how Chesley’s childhood will be. Me and mom were always very close, and I know my kids will be close to her too. Just seeing the way Mya’s eyes light up when I mention Mimi (my mom) makes me excited for my child to feel that way. I grew up with a lot of love, but also a lot of anger from my dad. I know that has affected me and my brother. Just the thought of being a parent makes me think about certain situations, and I shudder to think that I could get so angry at my child. On a more positive note, I was very close to my grandparents. I have so many happy memories with them. Grandma passed away in 2003, but Grampa is thankfully still with us and doing well. I’m sad when I think that my kids will not know my Grandma, but her love for me and my brother added so much to our lives and will not be forgotten.
What kind of mom will I be? Here are my feelings about that now. We will revisit this after he’s born to see what I stick with and right and wrong this is!
I know I will be anal about germs and being gentle with him when he is newborn and very young. He will not be in large crowds of people for at least 6 weeks. It will make me very nervous for children to handle him. I won’t like people kissing him all over, (MOM…). I’ve already told Mom about my no kissing rule, one kiss on the forehead is good. Ok, so very anal.
I will breastfeed hopefully for one year, so he probably won’t get to spend the night away from me till he is weaned. I can’t see myself trying to pump in the middle of the night to relieve my breasts while he is away. Hopefully when he gets older I’ll chill out and let things slide.
I will not be anal about solid foods. He will get French fries, cookies, ice cream, and sweets. He will also get fruits and veggies, but I want him to enjoy food and learn moderation.
It will be hard for me to let him make big messes. I’m sort of a clean freak. I will not let toys take over my house.
He will not sleep in the bed with us. The risk for SIDS is enough to scare me away from that. Plus Nathan throws elbows around, so it wouldn’t be very safe. I’m planning on trying to keep him in the playpen for a few weeks until he sleeps at least a few hours at a time. Then we’ll move him to his bed.
Only time will tell…
Thursday, November 13, 2008
I have not forgotten what a struggle I went through to get pregnant. I will never forget how it feels to want a baby and not be able to get pregnant on my own. I've already given all of the details in one of my first posts, so I won't go into all of that.
I sometimes feel bad about complaining too much about the pregnancy. It really is difficult to carry around and make a baby. God promised us after the fall of Adam and Eve that it would be difficult. But I am extremely thankful that I am given the opportunity to bring one of God's children into my family.
Since I was very young, I've always loved babies and children. I've always known that I wanted to have a baby. Getting married was very exciting for me because I knew that the time was coming where I could have a baby. We started trying after being married a little over a year with no luck. I saw friends and family have babies, planned and unplanned, some after the first try or a few months of trying. That is so hard to see, but I resolved myself that I would be joyful for the families for their new babies. I would not let my IF (infertility) make me bitter. I truly loved every child that I held, keeping my jealousy at bay. Not to say it wasn't hard. After holding a new baby or going to a baby shower, I would go home and slip into a brief depression. I'm glad that Nathan was there for me through that and was always good to me. Baby showers were so hard. I really enjoyed them, but I always dreaded when people asked me, "When are you having a baby?". I didn't realized how hard baby showers were for me until I attended one about a month ago and had such a great time and felt so excited for the new mom-to-be. It was a completely different experience that I had ever felt.
I never really gave it much thought as to what kind of pregnant girl I would be. Here are the two main categories of pregnant women (according to Hollie).
The Fragile Flower - This pregnant girl loves the idea of being a new mom and having a precious child, however, she complains a lot, is always tired, always at the dr or calling the dr worrying, and has a hard time being pregnant. She likes to stay home and rest.
The Warrior Woman - This strong woman thinks that all woman should carry on with life as normal through pregnancy, keep exercising, cooking, cleaning, working, doesn't experience many painful symptoms, and if she does, she doesn't worry and doesn' t complain.
Most ladies probably fall somewhere in between. Let's say Fragile Flower is a 0 and Warrior Woman is a 10. I would give myself... about a 3.5. I do work, clean, cook, but not as much as normal. I go to the dr a lot, and I certainly like to stay home and rest as much as possible. Something is always hurting. I thought I would been more of a Warrior Woman, but I'm not. I don't feel like I can help it. I do possess a slight glow of pregnancy. I like talking about the baby. I like rubbing my belly and feeling the baby move.
So, my point... I'm not really sure. I just wanted to share how I'm feeling and to say to my friends who are TTC (trying to conceive) that I've been there, and when I say that I'm thinking about you and praying for you, I really am. I really want each of you to get pregnant, soon. My meager advice, if you are the praying type, pray a lot. Go see the RE (reproductive endocrinologist) or your OB. Take all the help you can get. I'm thankful I was in a clinical study, and we did not have to spend a lot of money. But I would if I had to. I say to go for it. Your best chances are when you are young. You don't want to pass up your best chance and then decide later that you do want to get help from the dr. Have a support system, internet friends going through the same things as you, church, family, friends. Keep your husband close. And for the most part, take any advice you get (including mine) and put it to the side and follow your heart.
If you are not TTC and are just a friend reading my blog, take heart for your friends who are TTC, and remember that you never know who is sufferering from IF. They don't always tell people. So try to be sensitive when you ask people when they are having babies.
For my fellow pregnant friends, here's to each of us, with all of our differences and likenesses, may our children be healthy and our husbands stick by our sides! And just for fun, give yourself a score on the Fragile Flower - Warrior Woman scale.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
We were supposed to get the 3D u/s today. I've been really looking forward to it, but the baby was not in a good position to see his face. The tech looked at him in 2D when we first got there, and he was head down on his tummy. Then I saw the dr, and she looked again. He had flipped over, and we could see his face profile in 2D, but when she turned on the 3D, it didn't look very good. We could see his face in 3D for a second, but with being head down, face wedged in, no fluid around his face, the picture quality is really bad. So we will try again in two weeks, but I think we might just have to wait to see his face until he comes out, and I'm ok with that.
I hope everyone is having a good day.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
We are having a contractor come to give us a bid on our hurricane damage at our house today. That will be nice to get us on our way to getting our claim money from the insurance and get things repaired.
Tomorrow is the 3D u/s!!!
Monday, November 10, 2008
I got some cute pics yesterday that I will post later. Tonight is the breastfeeding class. So hopefully it will be good.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Friday, November 7, 2008
Thursday, November 6, 2008
1. 1st trimester "morning sickness" is really "all day sickness" and is not just nausea. It's feeling completely horrible 24/7 from your head to your toes.
2. The nausea also translated into major food aversions. I couldn't hardly eat meat, definitely no steak, chicken, pork. I basically lived off of nachos, chicken nuggets, french fries, sandwiches, mac and cheese, cereal, and pizza. I think my cravings were basically me wanting only one of the few foods I liked at the time. This lasted till about 20 weeks.
3. I have slept pretty bad since day 1 of pregnancy. Combination of progesterone supplements, using the bathroom every hour or two, discomfort, and just plain ole insomnia.
4. Braxton-Hicks contractions have affected me much more than I ever thought. I knew about them, but a few weeks ago, I started getting them regularly, about once an hour during the day, and many more at night. The ones at night are painful, like bad cramps. It makes me nervous about pre-term labor. I think if I get more than 5-6 an hour for two hours, I will probably make a trip to the hospital. And of course it's at night because if it was during the day, I could just see the dr in her office.
5. The amount of worrying that I do is much more than I thought! From getting the BFP, to the first beta, second, and third, then the first ultrasound (that was a big one!), then each milestone, now I worry about pre-term labor, there is so much to worry about. I'm trying to trust God to take care of us. I just want to pay attention to my body and do the best I can to follow drs orders.
6. The nesting instinct is so strong! I bugged Nathan so much until he got the baby bed, and now it just gets to collect dust for a while. And it's killing me to wait another month for a baby shower. I want his room to be ready now! So strange...
7. The joy and anticipation of his arrival is also very intense. Sometimes I close my eyes and picture him laying in my arms, and I get tears of joy from the excitement.
8. My husband - on some things he's responded a little worse than I expected, but for the most part he's been great. It's really neat to see him talk to the baby in my belly and get excited to feel the baby move. Seeing him in the childbirth class doing the dumb breathing exercises with me was pretty fun too. I can't wait to see him as a dad holding his son!
9. The tiredness... I guess I never knew I could get so tired after sitting at a computer all day.
10. People touching my belly uninvited!
11. People (men and women at work and family and church) making stupid comments to me and asking dumb questions. I had a guy at work the other day say, "There's chubby." Another guy yesterday asked, "Still pregnant? Hahaha." Uh... I said, "no" and walked off. It's so annoying.
12. The amount of time I spend thinking about pregnancy and baby! 24/7! It's really hard to concentrate on anything else. I wonder if it will be better or worse once he gets here.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
I did not feel very good last night. I've been doing a lot lately. I think I'm going to try and do as little as possible tonight and be lazy. Maybe that will help. My BH contractions get so crampy and painful at night. Maybe tomorrow my post will be a list of things I never knew happen during pregnancy. I thought if I read every book out there nothing could catch me by surprise. Boy was I wrong!
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
CPR class was very good. I encourage any parent/aunt/uncle/grandparent to take a CPR class if you will be spending time with children. Hopefully no one ever has to use it, but it's a good feeling to know that you know what to do if something does happen. The nurse who taught it was very good, maybe not as funny and silly as the nurse who taught our other class, but it was good.
Go vote!! I did it this morning on my way to work. To my surprise, there was no line.
I just discovered mobile blogging. I'm very excited about it! I can send a text message and it will post to my blog! That easy! It's exciting because if I'm out of town or not by a computer and when we're getting ready to have the baby, I can still post! I'm pretty computer dumb, so this is great for me, especially since we don't have a laptop. I want one but can't justify spending the money right now. So thanks blogger people!
Monday, November 3, 2008
Ok, enough rambling. I hope everyone has a great day!