When I look at my life in the details, I do have a lot of stress... I get little sleep. Sometimes I don't get help. I have to work. I try to get to work at a decent time. Hard to get in enough time with my son. Hard to clean house. Hard to deal with other people not doing things exactly how I do. Hard to find time to just relax and not get too busy. These things can really weigh me down sometimes if I let them.
But from time to time I remind myself how blessed I am. I have a wonderful healthy child. I have a good job that is flexible with me. I have family and friends that love me.
Those are the important things. The things I need to work on are:
1. Asking for help when I need it and not getting to the point where I am about to have a break down.
2. Getting to work earlier. Part is getting more middle of the night help so I can wake up earlier and part is coordinating better with Paulina to meet up and get to work.
3. Getting home earlier after work. It's hard because I like to visit with my family. But I need to have a little more time in the evening to have a decent meal and a few minutes to relax at night.
I think I am doing better on #1. #2 and #3 need a little work. But they are really nothing that I should stress myself over.
My life is tough right now mostly because of little sleep. This will get better in time. I love being mommy to the cutest baby in the world. I wouldn't trade it in for an easy life!