It's hard to go back to work after being off for four days. I do trust and appreciate our friends and family that help with babysitting, so it's not really that. I just miss him. He was sleepy and sad when I left him this morning. I hope he didn't get too upset. Plus it's hard with the bottles. We are only doing breastmilk, so whatever was pumped it what he gets. It works out, but most people probably think I should give extra "in case" he gets hungry. But he doesn't take formula well sometimes. And sometimes when I mix the breastmilk with formula and he doesn't drink it all, the breastmilk gets wasted. I don't like that. I sit here and pump, so I want him to get it. I give a bottle of juice too. So it works out. He eats baby food too. It definitely would be easier for me to give him formula, but I am committed to BFing, and I only nurse him when I am not working.
I'm not sure what happened with the diaper last night, but we had major pee leak at 4:30 am. I will re-lanolize tonight. So I had to change him and change my clothes. He was completely awake and happy to get up, kicking his legs and laughing and screaming (for fun). He finally fell asleep around 5:30, just in time for Nathan's alarm clock to start going off. Boo slept, but I didn't. Nathan doesn't understand why I get upset when he snoozes on his alarm clock for an hour... Maybe sleeping in separate rooms isn't such a bad idea.