Mommyhood

It really breaks my heart when SIL tells me that Boo cried all morning. I know that she is wonderful with him and would do anything in her power to console him. But I wonder, if I were there, would he still cry? Sometimes, yes, he would cry for me too, but sometimes, he might want his momma. Maybe I'm silly. I just never knew I could love somebody so much. I never knew I would want to stay home with a baby. I'm ok working. And if I stayed home, I know I would get frustrated sometimes. It's hard to explain. I wouldn't get frustrated with the baby. It's just very tiring. But I would still rather stay home with him. But that's not in the cards right now. My goal is that for baby #2, I want to stay home for a while.