I wish

I really wish I could stay at home with my son. I just didn't know how I would feel about work before we was born. And of course when we were buying a house and buying new cars, I wasn't thinking about having a baby and wanting to not work. I don't mind my job, I just want more time with Boo. I have thought up all kinds of crazy ideas that would allow me to stay home, but none are reasonable at all... Nathan could get two jobs... Win the lottery... Sell our house... (possible but there is a long road of repairs to be done and still possibility of not selling)...Nathan could get a higher paying job (not likely in this economy)... I could quit, get fired, laid off, but that wouldn't be good financially... I'm sure every working mother has these thoughts. I just seem to have them a lot. I am thankful that I have a good job in these hard times. I just miss my baby.